flowers and cigarettes 12.4.07

flowery spray and tobacco smoke
swirl around my fingers
staining them yellow
and perfuming them to choke

raw fish and raw flesh
rug burn stains her knees
red as the salmon in the throat

nicotine and endorphins
the violet fluid flows
through skin and bone
to the torrid torched infection

icy snow and shut pole
numb feet tinged with pain
while the camera flash
forces the snow blue

toilet bowl cleaner and tequila
mr. clean's stomach acid eating the linoleum
fetch him the dandelions from the freezer
echoes of a green day lost
now trapped in this box of metal and freon
shall rouse him from his grotesque reverie

flowers and cigarettes
in the night's black
lighted white by ice
now fades down to grey

god ash 6.5.07

when the god ash falls
from the sky
and there's nothing left
but to say goodbye
it doesn't hurt
i will never cry
will i live?
or do i die?

so now i'm
running
from myself
i hope you
choke
upon the god ash
and i don't
regret lighting the fire

so now i'm
running
from myself
i hope you
choke
upon the god ash
and i don't
regret lighting the fire

where am you?
what are i?
if i go away
will you cry?
the god ash falls
and bites my eye
is this truth?
or a lie?

so now i'm
running
from myself
i hope you
choked
upon the god ash
and i don't
regret lighting the fire

so now i'm
running
from myself
i hope you
choked
upon the god ash
and i don't
regret lighting the fire

i burned your god down
i burned your house down
i burned your life down
but i'm the one who dies

i burned your god down
i burned your house down
i burned your lie down
but i'm the one who dies

when the god ash falls
from the sky
and the lights go dim and die
i'm all alone
no you just i
i can't cry
just say goodbye

but i'm done
i can't run
from myself
any longer
the god ash falls
in my mind
as i lie down
and die

i burned your god down
i burned your house down
i burned your life down
but i'm the one who dies

i burned your god down
i burned your house down
i burned your lie down
but i'm the one who dies

i'm the one who dies
i'm the one who cries
i'm the one who
lies alone
with
no one
to hold

my eyes don't cry
but my heart does try
i lie
i lie
i lie
i lie alone and die

first entry...

i will not lie to you. heh. i may tell stories. i may sing songs. but i will never outright lie to you. i may speak from another's point of view. but i will never lie to you. of that you may be sure.

you can also be sure that you exist. i can't be sure you exist. but you can. i can be sure i exist. in fact i am. but you can't ever be sure that i exist. much the same i can never be sure you exist... you see where this might end up. 75 lines futher down and no new information revealed. i may be a philosopher, but i don't mince words. and i don't like to repeat myself.